Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Cube Crying.....

I am consumed with the enormousness of the responsibility of doing the right thing for my kid basically. As well as wanting to do what God has planned for me. So I'm reading comments from people who are amazingly supportive of my honesty, and see me completely for who I am, can not tell you how much it means to me when you drop in your pearls of wisdom as comments. But when I read them at work.....well....it ain't pretty! Probably doesn't help that the song by Kate Miner (brilliant worship leader and singer) just came on the ipod, yeah it's called "Who will cry for Me?" Stacie's right when she says....and I wish I could've remember this last night for my Alpha peeps......if God was easy to figure out, I doubt he'd be a God we'd be willing to serve. I guess I know "Who will cry for me....." Thanks for "getting" me.

7 comments:

Julie said...

Careful or I might come over there & hug you right now.:-)
Hang in there girlfriend! Springer is a definite possibility for Perry and you know your gut tells you to pursue this - disappointment or not. You don't want to come to the end and wonder "what if."

Stacie said...

Hey, again :-)

Can you possibly get some alone time in the near future? Go to Barnes & Noble and read, or go make a mess with your stamps and such. Play some good music and let yourself cry. Good heavens, there's nothing wrong with it! Honestly? Crying and creating art at the same time has produced some of my personally most powerful art (powerful in meaning for me, not necessarily anything anyone has to see or give an opinion on.)

Still praying for you...

Melinda said...

I write my best things when I'm feeling desperate/fearful/angry/sad... mostly what would be seen as "negative" things.

I think the reason you find some good comments in your blog is because you are so raw & honest and by being so others see themselves or their similar struggles.

Motherhood is a major binding influence for we women folk. The GUILT, ah the GUILT! not to mention the joy and the fear and all of it.

Just roll with the changes as best you can and stay open-minded...be determined, but flexible.

GeeGaw said...

I have no pearls, because you would not listen if I did. All I can say is I love you. More than life

Kathryn said...

Hugs and prayers to you, Jodi. Hang in there, friend, things will work out just as they're supposed to. :)

sewcynful said...

Jodi,
Ditto what everyone said. See you tomorrow night for Bible study. Maybe we can put the book aside and just talk about stuff. Our lives are more imortant right now than Brennan's dontcha think?

Heather said...

I totally agree with Stacy -- you need some Jodi time ... Find a way to get some time alone to just be ---