Sunday, January 20, 2008

Honesty.....

I am amazed at the ripe old age of 38 almost 39 I still struggle with insecurity. Worried about whether people like me or not. Like I get sad to think that someone may not like me for whatever reason. Sad but true. I suppose others feel this same way from time to time, they just don't talk about it publically on their blog.....like I did just now. It's all about putting it all out there and a creating a forum for discussion. I guess if others admit to it than I'm not so bad am I. Now if no one responds then I'm just lame I guess. Whatever. Most importantly I know that God loves me, my kid, and my husband, oh and my mom, most of the time.


Happy Martin Luther King Day.....now theres a man who never questioned if God loved him. He lived out what it means to do Gods will. I want to do Gods will.....this is my soul desire. The video above was his last speech given the night before he dies. So prophetic. I love how they show he was so filled with the Holy Spirit that he had to be helped to walk away and then sit down.

4 comments:

paperglueetc said...

We really are sisters, struggling with this subject on a VERY personal level and studying my bible trying to find peace just this morning I came across Proverbs Chapter 16 VS 7 "When a man's ways please the Lord, he maketh even his enemies to be at peace with him." I struggle with this daily and am trying to remember if I do what God wants me to do the rest will come! Love ya!

Teresa said...

I struggle with the exact same thing. I want to be liked! DARN IT! I wish people would respond to my blog so I don't look like a loser.

Anonymous said...

We all love you Jodi!!!

Karen

Stacie said...

I thought you knew me pretty well by now - I totally struggle with this. All the time!

It's so hard, too, when it involves spirituality because a lot of times you feel like a bad person or "bad Christian" doubting God's love. But God can handle our doubt, remember that (I think that video of Brian even touches on that.)